the last time I posted in this journal. I have been using another one for about 2 years now. I guess it was a new beginning for my new beginnings. So much in my world has changed. I have learned so much over the last 2 years, much pain, much joy, many lessons, no regrets. There are things I wish I could have done a little differently, but it's a lesson that we all do the best we can with what we have at any given time. I have experienced a love, an intensity that shadows anything I have ever known. I have gained so much, and experienced many losses, I have been betrayed, and have betrayed, I have given of myself, and taken too much from others, I have learned to be true to myself. I have experienced recovery on a whole new plane, and even when I have days that feel like I might just drop dead from pain (physical or emotional or even both) I am grateful for the journey I have been on, and continue to travel the road to happy destiny, one day, and often one minute at a time. I have been blessed with a body that has taken a beating, and although it betrays me at times, and falls short, but it's mine in all its beauty, in all its story telling scars, in its strength, in it's weaknesses. There are days when I can run miles, and days when getting out of bed seems daunting, and I have learned to take the good and the bad without bitching too much.
I have seen, touched, felt, and witnessed my higher power in action.....and for this.. I am grateful